Portent of Love

29th of september, 2019
vision of love: first entryfrom a typical simple life, destiny encourages the portent of love in the future.
encountering exquisite experience, i did not expect it to be an adventure.
a fabric of hope seems to flourish, sorrow in the heart tends to rapture.
i couldn't abide, denying the vividly unexpected feeling to be captured.without my knowledge you relieved every inch of my lament and torment.
in my perspective, i would breach of trust with fraudulent intent.
thinking intrusively, i felt the empathy crawl up to my head really quickly.
i suddenly snapped upon my return into reality.
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time passed rapidly and the unexplainable feelings grew ineffably.
seeing him in my sight is galvanizing, catching my breath and heartbeats furiously.
non-stop speaking about him, spilling up personal questions curiously.
i sentenced this feeling to perish, but it's going upside down dramatically.hear your voice and i'll rejoice, from the very beginning, i hope you are the right choice.
it's the melody of an angel, clean and soft, and tends to be a white noise.
seems like gravity is the only thing that is pulling me down into the dark blue deep ocean of charm that you possess, hope i will survive and not surrender.but if i will see you having your deserved happiness in someone else's arms, the ends of my lips will go up but the pain and agony will swallow and tear me asunder.
in that case, i'd rather find my way out to escape the poisonous deep blue ocean of yours by myself than escape with someone who made the blue ocean poisonous.

Lost Home

15th of february, 2021
vision of love: second entryanother room enough to make me wonder— a home filled with glee.
it is stunning, as i sought for solace, this home held me gently.
soft texture of the walls, bright green of plants, tender touch of the burning sun.
imagine it is all just rainbows and fun.for so long locked out of my home—
the rain has taught me uncountable things and the road has urged me to roam.
i lost myself, once again, another unfamiliar place of emptiness.
where has the love gone? seeking the key as it seems to be disappearing— causing me home sickness.
i sigh as i find the reason to live again, to keep breathing.
it is beyond my control to make something out of nothing.where is my home? a person to complete me.
i have searched for so long— yet i only found myself, lonely.
in the streets, watching the red light turn green.
feel the jealousy as i glance at people's in-between—
being held with a warm hand of their lover.
starred by a pair of glowing eyes, constantly hoping for the love to uncover.then again, here am i— waiting for my feet to find their way back.
back to my home— if it ever existed, i would find its track.
a chest to lean on, to let my tears crawl down on, to turn my feelings back on.
but when? this is just another imagination i lay upon.

Afterlife

5th of december, 2020
vision of love: last entrymy love,
it has been ages
since i last saw the morning sun
touch your bare flawless face.
years have passed
when the last time i saw the light
reflect on the tears crawling on your cheeks.
i miscounted the years
of us being domesticated.
it has been long
since i last felt your fresh plump lips
colliding into mine.words of the universe
never mattered.
their perspective was solid.
never did they have the ability
of seeing the spark
between two women.

time flew quickly,
it has been seven years and counting
yet it never healed a tick of pain.
it hasn't covered the mark
that you left behind —
with me.
then again, the flag of hope
waits for its melody to be free again
i surrender my lifetime —
for you.after seven years of woe,
for once,
i will feel your spirit and presence,
how the ray of light shines
brighter with you.
hold your hands with closed eyes
but with woke mind,
be gentle with your ashes
and look at you with tenderness,
embrace your dead body
until we rot.

Moment of Birth

18th of october, 2020
pitas bulaklak: second entrythen again another windy day in the south, cold freezing wind dances with my hair.
occupies inches of deep worries, strongly covering my pining over her.
as they fade, the sun arises from the unknown.
then it was her who hugged me with warmth.you who covers my ears from the noises coming from the bureau,
mutes me from the volume of negativity,
wakes me up in a cottage, beside the energy source.
spend the eternity with me, home is you.so the darkness would not be as dark, rough would not be as rough.
a drop of ink stands up on a piece of art.
buckets of paint colors the wind without boundaries.
gently whispers and my door opens without hesitation.you who don't need ink or paint to take over my system, i willingly get on one bended knee.
take my hand, my dear, we will be far gone from the city bureau.
no machines to take down my walls.
there are no silent voices nor blinded eyes between us.
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the painted wind is our amusement, no matter how thick or thin it must be.
we let the animals go wild with smiles, write their own destinies.
white flower dresses of ours are washed in a river by us together.
grow our own herbs and crops, and i serve you intimate love.dig the deepest holes into our souls and plant the richest tree.
uncontrollable silver butterflies inside me while i braid your hair with barrettes.
even with the freezing wind and noisy city bureau, i purposely let my guard down with you.
then again, longing will arrive soon.as the light fades radically, the sun sets beneath our feet reflecting on the surface of the sea.
the wind feels stacked, as if no one is around.
her smile fades upon the light of the sun, disappearing with it.
6:28 pm, it is time to set a guard around me.until the warmth flies and lets the icy air cover the half of myself.
her presence was grace but once again evaporated.
this cottage without her feels empty, the plants lost their green.
every night, in the south.

Wika ng mga Bulaklak

5th of december, 2020
pitas bulaklak: third entryaking bituin,mahal, sana'y maayos ang lahat.
sana'y mayroong mahalimuyak na bulaklak na nagbabantay sa'yo.
kung pwede lamang, ibabalik ko ang mga oras na tayong dalawa sa isang kubo.
lahat ng wika ng mga bulaklak ay maiintindihan na'tin.noong nawala ka sa isip, naglaho ang pangalan mo.
pati kulay ng mikropono mo'y nabura, lahat dahil sa isang aksidente.
naaalala ko pa noong wala kang maibigay saakin kung 'di sigaw at bala.
unti-unti, natutunan kong sapuin ang mga bala mong umaapoy.hanggang sa sabay na tayong gumagawa ng kape sa umaga.
umabot tayo sa punto na ikaw lamang ang gusto kong lambingin.
ikaw lamang ang gagawan ko ng koronang bulaklak.
tayo ang nagtatanim at nagpapalago ng kakainin nating gulay.hanggang sa hindi na tayo sabay kumain, dahil kinailangan mong lumisan.
simula noon, nakalimutan ko na ang lenggwahe ng mga bulaklak.
wala na akong ginagawan ng korona dahil namatay ang mga tanim, at dahil wala ka na.
sana'y iyon na ang ating huli ngunit hindi, kumuha ako ng bato na hinampas ko sa aking ulo.
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lahat ng pag-aari ko ay nasanay na sa presensya mo.
naramdaman ko na wala ako sa'king mundo.
walang humpay kong iniisip ang pag tirintas mo sa buhok ko.
akala ko noon na hindi na tayo haharap sa pait.butil ng bigas lamang ang kailangan, mahal.
kahit isang bituin sa buong sansinukob, magiging makasarili ako.
pero tapos na, naubos na ang oras ng dula.
nagsara na ang kurtina ng entablado, lumabas na ang sikretong itinago ko sa iyo ng dalawang buwan.noong nalaman mo na pumunta ako sa mundo mo para pitasin ang bawat bulaklak.
na hindi ako taong tulad mo.
patawad, mahal, dahil pinasok ko ang kadiliman na maaaring makapatay ng walang pigil.
patawad dahil ako ang dahilan ng pagkaubos ng anyo mo.hindi ko hahayaang magsara ang iyong pinto, babalik ako.
tatahakin ko ang mga tinik ng rosas, haharapin ko ang buong hardin.
pupuntahan kita, maeve.
at sa araw na iyon, sabay nating aaraling muli ang wika ng mga bulaklak.nangangako,
ynena mimosa

Line of Sincerity

21st of december, 2020
pitas bulaklak: last entryanother world is waiting for you.
where the time and space you seek,
will come, hug and let you speak.
line of sincerity will amend inside you.brand new life, brand new platforms.
a bag of worries into a sack of worms.
we could ever meet by chance,
in this world, you talk to the plants.ynena, you are enchanted.
just another plant, a woman of strength.
who tends to run away from mantid,
but then face a cobra with long length.watch the trees produce nutritious food,
let the veins grow as long as they could.
enter a temple full of bars of gold,
sway your stems and be bold.then again, your agenda went upside down.
caused the distance between us unmeasurable.
among us, no one came safe and sound,
still we turned maple.drowned in an ocean in your behalf,
the line of sincerity into a graph.
yet, i never regretted being with you.
i don't dare keep you out of my sight or deny you.i have waited for you for most of my life.
into your lake of lies, i dived.
ynena, say my name three times,
nothing has ever sounded like wind chimes.maybe one day, we will return to our domestic selves.
listen to the waves of the ocean,
play with the crabs and elves.
we were better off without the poison.one day, ynena. one day.— yours, maeve.

Penpals

28th of november, 2020
applause of men: first entryi have been staring
at a blank white paper
wondering how to put in words
the journey i have been through —
a story without you.
holes were filled
without your grace, joshua.
another sun rose
new moon appeared,
the whispers of the love
you never gave.the quill thought
and the letter wrote itself,
must i send it?
for the words to reach your pride,
and calm your name.you are far beyond
my heart now.
you've gone dust
and melted dried tears,
time after time
without your reply —
these are my last words."joshua deary,
i may not own
your heart anymore,
but don't let your tears
fall down.
i desire less of you,
and more of another.
don't let a feather
touch you.
you're dangerous."i loved you, joshua.
but time has passed.

Unfairness

16th of january, 2021
applause of men: second entrythis is for the ladies.
the increase of women rights does not equal to the decrease of men rights.
equity is what we seek.
we need the respect of men —
their consideration,
and humbleness.
pity is not the answer we are looking for,
we, women stand for ourselves.do it as you rely on the male leaders,
like how the faces of the country are men.
as how your bigotry expanded,
believing that men are better than women.
if one could trust a man,
what is so different with trusting a woman?age has never been a barrier
for knowing one's rights and responsibilities.
creating a safe environment —
is another huge task of humans.
we need to wash the world
for the future women to step on.

the feeling of obligation to be meters away from a man,
does still concur us.
the sheer anxiety we handle as we
walk our way in a skirt, still exists.
being held by the neck, longer than
we could ever imagine.it is beyond our understanding.
blind minds seek to not listen,
deaf ears desire to not see.
when will this end?

A Tangled Tail

18th of february, 2021
applause of men: last entrywater, shells, sand—
such exquisite things to be surrounded by.
ocean, seas, land—
couldn't get myself to dry.but ships, nets, pirate—
were told to be the death of me, a mermaid.
knives, blood, riot—
men have sworn to put me up for a parade.i have swam more than what they've walked.
as they see me just as another treasure.
for ages of being stalked—
i am not born to be their pleasure.no more of peaceful waves
replaced with applause from men.
i can never stand the way he behaves,
will i ever be back in the ocean again?

Larinne 's

This assemblage of poems contains a 9 different collections that includes three poems each collection. A total of 27 poems are inside four carrds which are, as said respectively: Fallen Calamity (windybureau) , Heaven's Guilt (filmlantern) and Bad Omen (wishwarlock).

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Fallen Angel

15th of June, 2020
draftedLet us play among the clouds
Just to hear you laugh aloud
Oh, fallen angel I'm so proudI want you to fly me high
We'll explore around the sky
Oh, darling I'll relyYour laugh is like a ray of light
It's shinning bright, it's shinning bright
Gold heart of mine is the best sight
Hmm, you're the fallen angel of the nightLet's touch the clouds, the moon and stars
You're the healer, the reliever of every pain and scars
Of all your flaws, I don't mind
So fly me higher and further until we reach a satelliteThere is no chance
No matter what pain, I'll hide inside
Oh just keep flying so high
Cause I will stay right by your sideYour eyes are like the universe
They're shinning bright, you're shinning brightLet's watch the stars while we converse
Hmm, hope you know that you mean so much to meㅤ
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